falling into you

Everything is a bit, weird. Slightly chaotic, slightly peaceful, quite sad, mostly strange, very uncomfortable. 

I'm so thankful that the new Mumford & Sons album came out this week. Perfect timing, when I really need them.

Right now, I'm learning how to truly fall into the strong arms of the Lord when I'm confused, hurt, frustrated, and in a seemingly-constant state of unknown in this transition period. I'm learning how to trust like I mean it, like I really believe Him when He tells me that I won't be put to shame by Him, that He will always love me, and has good things for me (ahem, Isaiah 54, 1 Tim 6, etcetera).

I know that this song is now blowing up the radio streams, but I love it and it my theme song because it matches the state of my soul right now.

"I Will Wait"

well I came home,

like a stone,

and I fell heavy into Your arms.

these days of dust

which we've known,

will blow away 

with this new sun.

but I'll kneal down, wait for now.

and I'll kneel down,

know my ground.

and I will wait I will wait for You

and I will wait I will wait for You.

so break my step,

and relent.

well you forgave, and I won't forget;

know what we've seen

and him with less.

now in some way, shake the excess.

and I will wait I will wait for you

and I will wait I will wait for you

Now i'll be bold, as well as strong

and use my head alongside my heart

so take my flesh

and fix my eyes

a tethered mind, freed from the lies.

and i'll kneel down, wait for now

i'll kneel down

know my ground

raise my hands

paint my spirit gold

bow my head

keep my heart slow

i will wait

i will wait

for You 

amen to that.